Just Another Day ...

Over You by Chris Daughtry

2007-12-22T14:58:00.000+08:00

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I feel too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meee

(chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time agooo!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally gettin' better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!!!
(end chorus)

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other's opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best fom me

(chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, time agooo!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!!!
(end chorus)

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you...

Questions running through my head...

2007-11-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

Why do girls think so much even when it's just a simple stuff? They often misunderstood and think too much. I totally agree with it, but it's just the way all female thinks.

I'm now thinking, what if he's just using me? what if it's just a fling and I'm throwing myself to him? What if it's this and that? I really don't know what else to think. Is he for real? All these questions are really running through my head. I'm really confuse, and there's no solid answer at the moment. I really don't know what else to think.

I feel happy but sometimes when these question arises, I tend to get scared of being used again. And all these things... I don't need all these thinga happenning to me right now. I'm so tired of being in a relationship sometimes but of course, all girls love being loved. It's the experience which is what we're paranoid about.

Expereinces that's bad, over and never forgotten.

Laziness

2007-11-11T12:07:00.000+08:00

It's been a long weekend of holidays. Have been lazing around the house for 3days and I feel pretty useless. For the first time, I'm longging to go back to work on Monday. Work keeps me of my mind whenever I've things on my mind. Keeps me busy and time passes by with a blink of an eye.

For the pass 3 days, I have been thinking quite abit. I remembered the day that mc prayed for me on my birthday. She prayed that I'll find a man who will take good care of me, a man that will love me and appreaciate me for who I am, a man that will provide me love, care and tenderness. Thinking of it, could he be the one? I'm so confused but yet happy. It's been a while that somemore cares and misses me so much. It's always nice knowing that there's someone cares for you and someone misses you. **I need an answer**

It's weird how much I miss him when he's not around. It's only been a couple of days but I can't stop thinking of him. Just wish that he's here sometimes...

Mixed Emotions

2007-11-10T02:10:00.000+08:00

It's been 8 days since we moved into this new condo unit and lots of things happen since then. Got lock out of the house on the second day and slept outside the corridor, people puking in and out the house etc... hehe.. getting drunk almost everyday... it's kind of fun though.

My 2 other workmates are now my housemates too. Can't believe that we're actually staying together and everything happen just in a blink of an eye. Decided to look for a place in a day, found a place in 2 days, moved in a week, hahaa... It's kind of cool how we get along so well and accompany each other everynight drinking and puffing away in our lovely balcony. I think that's where we hang out most of the time in the house.

And as for personal life, I guess I'm doing a great job handling stress and dissapointment. Or am I too busy to realize what I'm going through? hmmm... I hope for the better every single day but I'm too confuse with what's happening right now. It's been 3 months going into 4 and everyday there will be new surprises without fail. I bumped into a long lost friend of mine in Starbucks Curve yesterday and he told me this;

"things happen for a reason. Probably God choose this path for you. And he knows best eventhough you might think that it's not the best of path he has chosen, but things might be worse if he chose to make it happen in a months time?".

Come to think of it, yeah~ maybe and maybe not. Whatever the reasons, I just hope that it's truely the best for me he has choosen. I'll leave it to the hands of the almighty.

Ever since he left me, I've been going out every single day. No matter what day or time it is. I just realized how important my friends are to me. I've been bumping into so many long lost friends and catching up with them ever since. And I remembered that I've always complained I have no friends. Boy, I am so wrong. I have loads of friends. Just that I have been ignoring them and busy "paktor-ing". I'm happy to see all of them and know that everyone has changed for the better. Everyone sees me as I'm the strong and independent one, but somehow I think that's just what they're seeing from the outside. On the inside, I'm just so fragile and emotional.

These Mix Emotions is really killing me. Happy, sad and confused. Let's just hope I can hold on till everything is better.

Welcoming back myself after 3 years

2007-11-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

It's a brand new start.

Welcome, welcome to myself. It has been 3 years since I've updated this blog. I've decided to delete all the previous entries and start a brand new life, blog etc. I read all my previous entries before deleting it and 90% of the entries are all sad stories.

So let's just hope that this brand new start will be happy moments with friends and improvements in my life.